i am hoisting that black flag...

my horoscope from friendster

you draw your own conclusions

Try not to start anything that you can't finish, today. Flirtatious conversations could lead someone to believe that they're at the beginning of something when in fact you're just trying to be charming, so be prudent. Making a date when you know you might not be able to keep it will only get you a flaky reputation. It's much better to ask for more time so that you can fully commit than it is to just tell someone what they want to hear and then back out.

artists

An artist is someone who produces things that people don't need to have but that he - for some reason - thinks it would be a good idea to give them.

-Andy Warhol

regret

wild sweet orange, "house of regret"

i was found on that dark hillside
with a certain painting by my side
screaming: knock down the house of regret
knock it down, pave it over
till you feel younger and younger
knock it down, pave it over
till you feel like you can't again
knock it down, pave it over
till your heart's warmer and warmer
knock it down, pave it over
till you wake up born again

what is it with emo bands and jesus?

anathallo, "declared, bannered:"
I could not look Him in the face, so I stood revarnishing the floor with my eyes. He stared into them with this love so offended and profound. He tore the center of my shirt and red ws bleeding through from underneath the white clothes that I wore. The fire of devotion was only an ember. Alarmed at this sign of decay, my legs gave out because there was no self left to stand on. Thus, my heart was grieved, vexed in my mind, still Your banner over me was love. My walls are ever before You, still Your banner over me is love. But it was Your kind arms cradling me, a criminal. But it was your kind arms cradling me, a criminal. Oh wretched worm of a man that I am, on Thy kind arms I fall.** I'm just a man. I'm just a criminal.

**From the gravestone of William Carey, reading only, "A wretched, poor, and helpless worm, On Thy kind arms I fall&"

love this song. had no idea it was about jesus. not sure how i feel about it now, but it DOES remind of another emo classic:



mineral, "february:"
and the snow falls down melts before it even hits the ground and i'm standing here listening to the sound of your hand washing back and forth across my filthy heart and i don't know if i should say "i'm sorry" or "thank you" i try to speak but the tears choke the words and i think i finally know what they mean when they talk about joy.

woah, horoscope!

The malaises which you're suffering from at present are more psychic than physical, for your general state of health is not bad. It's your concerns and anguishes that are the cause. Look for the peace of soul, and then you'll be in a good shape like a flower early in the morning. These astral influences will accentuate the contradictions inherent in your personality. If you begin to entertain gloomy ideas, if you no longer have the desire to be active, if you take no further interest in your entourage, then you must react very swiftly, for these are the first signs of a nervous breakdown.

i am trying...

edgar cayce reading for today:

He who doubts that the best will come to him with doing of that which is correct is already defeated. Don't blame others for what has happened or may happen. Do right yourself, physically, mentally and spiritually, and the best will come to you.

Edgar Cayce Reading 5203-1