fucked up dreams

i am at some kind of work function like a workshop or all-day session, pitching clients in a hotel / store amalgam. i am feverishly making decks for the presentations, including one for a client who openly dislikes my company. at some point, one of our clients brings backk a laptop they had borrowed, which i open to discover porn playing loudly. this startles many of our clients and the random customers who are now shopping in the store.

i am driving driving back to boston in an enormous tractor trailer. at first driven by a young attractive girl with glasses and dark hair, then by a hispanic man. the highway is crowded with traffic and we barey escape an accident. the truck is equipped with a refeuling apparatus in the center that let's us gas up on the fly. the cab smells like gas.

i am home, a successful artist. son of a famous deranged artist mother. she is clearly on drugs / insane / possessed. she begins acting erratically - at first hysterical and childlike, then attacking me and incuring self-inflicted injuries to her face, which swells and distorts into a grotesque mask. i yell and sob and plead with her to stop and realize my art is some kind of coping mechanism. i wake myself up yelling out loud.

i am sketching a sarah palin halloween costume. she is holding a new baby, but the umbilical chord is still intact. they are both dressed as nuns or pilgrims, but the baby has a pink plastic bag over its face.

tired, fighting off a cold

victory beers and shots last night. victory burg with old friends. home early to prepare for the day.

in bed early but fitful sleep. bad dreams.

up on time for a cold run in the rain. leaves are down now.

i am optimistic, but there is so much work left to do.

someone told me this today

from blue crane:

"When you battle with your conscience and lose, you win."
-Henny Youngman, comedian and violinist (1906-1998)

making it happen

chinese horoscope:

"You'll feel more apt to communicate with others and very motivated to carry out your professional and social ambitions. Concern yourself more with your family, particularly with your children. You can count on your long-time friends. You'll tend to indulge in some food excesses; take better care of your life hygiene, do exercises and sports. This time the wheel of Fortune will turn to your favor; you'll be successful in everything!"

best 'fridge decoration

ever

victory beer

victory beer in my patriotic rebel glass.

thanks patty!

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