american football

how to say goodbye
to these four years
a long goodbye
mixed emotions
not dead yet
but the regrets
are killing me

bizarre work dream

i am in central park with my partners at bond. for a project, we have to reenact a scene from entourage. i have to play ari gold, and emily (former colleague) has to play one of the other dudes. i am upset with my costuming and keep forgetting the dialog but i am still being forced to act the scene out over and over in one take. eventually, we take a break, and i recline on a hill with three young russian girls. i put my detachable penis back on (which i had to remove for the shoot) and the girls marvel at its size.

crazy apocalypse dream

i am traveling on business, staying in a hotel downtown in a new city. hailey duff is staying there too, and we've been making eyes with each other in the lobby for the last few days. she finally speaks up, and asks to join my table where i am eating and drinking. i run into a friend and invite him over, and then see a new girl i'd rather hang with and try to get away.

somehow, santarpios is near the hotel, even though i am nowhere near east boston, so i go around the corner to get a pizza. everyone there knows my name and usual order, a pie with hot cherry peppers and garlic. i confuse them by changing my order because i am worried about my breath smelling bad with one of the chicks back at the hotel.

i head back to the hotel and the dream shifts. there has been an earthquake up and down the eastern seaboard, and the financial crisis has plunged the country into a depression. there is violence and chaos in the streets, and i am filled with an overwhelming panic to get home to my family.

i see a news report of a highway torn in two and firefighters are trying to rescue an enormous tiger that has fallen into a crevasse. the tiger has had his teeth and jaw ripped away by lions, who the firefighters are fighting back while trying to free the tiger.



i set off from the city i am staying in and find myself on a road through the woods alongside an abandoned strip of highway. there is a bus overturned on the side of the road. people are looting it. i join in and try to maintain order, but still realize i need supplies. i find some shoes and join a group of people who are traveling away from the city.

i end up meeting up with my family, and find out everyone is ok. we are on a bus, but soon part ways somehow?

i travel for a long time and find myself in a flooded rural town with a new group of travelers. we are floating on homemade rafts and in shopping baskets. there is a baby with us now and an older man who inspires us not to give up. i am attacked by a young couple who try to steal my shoes, but i fight them off and return to the group.

we make our way out of the flooded basin and find a road along the town. we see a number of houses, some boarded up, some abandoned, all foreboding. we walk a long time and find ourselves on the outskirts of another city, in a bad part of town, where most of the residents have remained in squalor. i am afraid of being attacked. we travel from a hispanic neighborhood into a nicer black neighborhood. people are listening to news reports. the radio says something about how we have all paid for this current crisis with "our guns." i am filled with dread.

yet another scarily accurate chinglish horoscope

Put some humor in your life as a couple, don't take yourself too seriously. Risks of heavy headaches. You'll have an opportunity to speak in public, but you'll be seized by fright; take a plunge anyway! You'll react with enthusiasm or violence to all situations, and your relationships with your nearest and dearest will be rather of passion. You could discover an ideal lodging, but on condition to make active research.

heavy metal parking lot

from debbie:

my bro and his friends with their tix to van halen back in the 80's. my bro is farthest to the right

leslie shershow rules

so almost a year ago now, i met leslie shershow while i was back home in boston... at first, i thought she was some kind of battle-dancer-slash-performance artist, but then i learned that she is an amazingly talented metalsmith, artist, jewlery designer, teacher, what-have-you.

we became friends.

i decided to cover her on cool hunting.

evidently the post got her some exposure and she's now going to be in elle and la times magazine...

the good news was thanks enough, but today i got this in the mail...

so congrats and thanks to leslie... and go buy her stuff, which is awesome.

everytime you justify another good in you dies

edgar cayce: ". . justifying of self is blaming someone else."